Saturday, October 22, 2011

A Me Update

Sorry, I have been missing in action. Not sure anyone has missed me....but I have missed you all.

Thank you, to those of you who left messages about your/my mother-in-law. It is good and bad to know there is more than one of my mother-in-laws out there. I am sorry and I feel your pain. As an update to my relationship. Since our last trip to Iowa, my mother-in-law has had nothing but bad things to say about me to my dear husband each time they talk on the phone. After one conversation he had with her, he hung up and told me to delete her from my Facebook page. Yikes! I didn't want to do it, but I did. It was liberating, lol. She keeps asking to be my friend again, I will not accept.

Okay, on to happier times. I am a college student now. Yes, that is right, I have gone back to school. Right now I am getting my prerequisites completed, then I apply for the nursing program. My first plan was to get my RN, however, this week I have found many articles and have talked to a few people who say most hospitals are only hiring RN, BSN. Okay, this means that I will be 93 when I complete my studies...no big deal, right? I'm not too worried. I will keep plugging along. It will happen. My plan at this point is to attend CNA classes over the summer, then I can at least get a job working with patients. This will give me more points to go towards getting into a nursing program.

Getting back into school has been challenging. Of course working 40 hours a week and 2 classes proved to be a challenge. Add to this a husband, housework, cooking/eating, a daughter who has decided I don't spend enough time with my granddaughters, I was not a good mother to her growing up, and I am a terrible mother now. (Of course, she forgets all the times I have been there for her and she doesn't ever begin to know what I have sacrificed for her in the past. I spoiled her too much.....grrrr). My real job has been very slow so I requested to go to a 30 hour work week. That has helped a bunch. I have time to get more study time in, can spend a little time with my husband, etc.

My husband is perfect! Have I ever said that out loud? I'm not sure...but I have now. He has been helping with housework, dishes, cooking and laundry. He said that this is his job, my job is to make good grades. Thank you!!! I still jump in and do a few things, but he usually gets onto me for it and says I am not to do anything. Sorry, I have to, at least, but the dishes away from the dishwasher. If I don't, I can't find anything. He puts things in the strangest places.

Okay, that is about it for now. I have to get to my homework.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It Ain't Just Me

Yay!! After my weekend with my mother-in-law I thought maybe it was just me being sensitive. Today I talked to my daughter-in-law who had been there too. I said, "Mary was in rare form last weekend." Becky said, "Oh my gosh....I have never seen her like that before. She treated you like dirt all weekend!" Welcome to the family!

I talked with Rod on the phone today and told him what Becky said. He said, "What is wrong with her?" Then I felt bad and started making excuses for her. Drat!! I hate myself for that. I said, "Maybe she is depressed or something." Drat!!! I hate myself for that.

Hopefully I will not have to go visit her again....ever!! Maybe, just maybe, I can stay home in a quiet house and Rod can go spend the weekend with her and she will be happy as a clam! I know I will.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

"You'll never be a skinny, little girl"

What inspires you to stay on track?

I went to visit my mother-in-law last weekend. We always discuss diet. How beautiful my sister-in-law is....and she is. How my mother-in-law cared at one time, but doesn't any more. This time we started talking about diet and I said I have rejoined Weight Watchers. That is when she said it....


"Mary, you will never be a skinny, little girl!"


Huh?!


That took me off guard. My mouth fell open. I said, "I'm not trying to be a 'skinny, little girl', I'm trying to get to my healthy weight range." I then walked into the bathroom, shut the door, looked into the mirror and said, "I'll show you!!" Anorexia, here I come!! Not really, I like to eat too much for that.


Who does she think she is?!?


I know who she is. She is the most hurtful woman I have ever met. She hates me. She is very jealous of me and the time I spend with Rod. How completely weird and twisted is that!?!


Rod had her on speaker phone one day while calling to see how she was doing. He told her he just mowed the yard, and picked produce in the garden. She said, "Did you have any help?" Like I was sitting in the house eating bon-bons. Of course, my mouth fell open and I turned from my chores in the kitchen and looked at him. He immediately took her off speaker phone and went out on the deck to talk to her.


She has told me that she has the cutes picture of Rod when he was little, dressed in a cowboy outfit. I have one of me dressed in a cowgirl outfit. I said, "I would love to have that picture." Thinking how cute it would be to put the two pictures on the wall together. She looked me up and down like I was a piece of trash and said, "Why would I give it to you, so you can just leave him and take it with you?" Seventeen years later, I still don't have the picture. Oh, did I mention she said this in front of about 25 people?

She is a bitter, hateful, deceitful, woman....and she is my mother-in-law. Yikes.

This makes me know, I do not want to ever be like her.


















Wednesday, June 29, 2011

AMAZING

People never cease to amaze me!

I belong to a couple of chat forums for quilting. I am always amazed at the amount of money people "want" to pay. First they post the question, should I or shouldn't I buy this enormously expensive item. They get tons of responses, mostly nays from people who have the item and never, ever use it. After about 30 posts....like I said mostly "don't do its"....the person posts, "Thanks for all of your responses to my question. I took the plunge and made the purchase!" Huh??!!?? What did I miss. Everyone tells her don't do it....and she thanks them and does it anyway. Why not just save cyber space and make the dumb purchase in the first place. Ah, just had a thought....may she just wanted to buy it anyway and wanted everyone to know she had it.

People never cease to amaze me!!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Salsa, Chips and Margaritas

Okay, show of hands. Who remembers the quilt I wanted to enter in the theme category for MQS, hum, what was it last year? Yes, last year. The theme was South of the Border. Somehow, must have been Divine intervention, I got this crazy idea that I could enter. I drafted out a pattern on paper...well not really drafted, I just did a very rough draft, but I gotta say...it looked awesome. I almost had convinced myself I could do this.

I gathered the fabrics, as you all know can take some time. Then I purchased threads of many colors, mostly Superior's Rainbows.

Do you remember seeing my entry at MQS? No?? Yeah, that's because it never made it. I finished the spiral lone star and the points met perfectly - yay me!! But that is where it ended. That really lone star...and I mean lone star...has been laying on my table for a year an a half. The other fabrics have been cut and ready to keep on creating...but I have not been able to bring myself to do it. It is like someone pulled the plug on my creativity and I am just drained. Kind of empty.

Lately, the star has been calling to me. The majorly big problem is....well, there are a couple...the first majorly big problem is MQS has already had another theme and announced another one for next year, which will mean I am now 2 years behind the "theme". Kind of funny when you think about it. The second majorly big problem...my longarm has been sold and is gone. Oh, and another thing...all those beautiful, eye candy, threads were sold long, long ago...so there is a third majorly big problem.

When I finish this quilt top, and I will finish, I will have to quilt it on my domestic machine. I can't even image attempting that. Hey, I just had a though....maybe by the time I finish making the top, I will have bought another longarm....now, that is a funny thought!

Friday, May 20, 2011

New Baby's Quilt

We may go shopping tomorrow for fabric for Kelsey's quilt. Yay. I tried to look after I left Claudia Pfeil at the convention center on Saturday at MQS. I had set in my mind that I would go to the quilt stores and look at fabric...it would inspire me. I went to two of my favorite stores, walked through looking at ever piece of fabric in the store.....and left empty handed and empty hearted! Hum....I am not out of my slump....yet. I know I will and am hoping that when Jen and I go shopping for Kelsey's quilt fabric something will click...by the way....here is a picture of the cutie-patootie getting the quilt....








Tuesday, May 10, 2011

It is Getting Real

Well, Penny is coming this weekend to pack up my longarm and take her to her new home. We will also pack up my beloved Circle Lord and send it off with machine. Really, the Circle Lord won't do me any good without a longarm, so I will let it go....but it almost harder letting go of it than it is the machine. Isn't that strange?!

Tonight I have started pulling quilting magazines off the shelf to offer up to give away. If Penny doesn't want them, they go to a local guild. Whew!!! I have way too much stuff! This is just the tip of the iceberg.

If I can keep from mailing anything I'm going to. I do not want mess with trying to keep everything straight and trying to run to the post office a zillion times. I just don't have it in me.

On the other hand. I will be so happy to get my basement cleaned out...cleaned up....and organized once again. It is a complete mess right now. I would take a picture but someone would turn me over to the authorities.

On the other hand, I will be so happy to drag out my sewing machine and make myself some clothes that fit. I am long armed, long bodied, long legged...I need clothes that fit!!